Service set

We set up a service for our little man Lawrence (Larry). It will be Tuesday at 9:30 a.m. at Christ the King Episcopal Church. We selected some beautiful music and the readings are perfect. Just a few more details to iron out, I think, and we'll be set.

Now, I just wish I could wrap my mind around why in the world I have to do this. My heart is broken. It hurts. Today has been a difficult day and yet, therapeutic. I played cars with Connor this evening and it was very comforting. Especially so when he climbed into my lap to get some snuggle time while we continued to play. It's good to feel some joy in the midst of the sorrow and heart break.

The song below is something I can somewhat relate to, but it also helps me appreciate what I have just a little bit more. Connor is my saving grace right now. We are blessed. I dedicate to the women who are struggling as we are or differently. Whatever your struggle on your road to mommy-hood...hang in there. You're not alone. Neither am I. God is in control.